Now that i've calmed down some, i'll write a little bit.

I had a good talk with deb today about the status of our relationship. Until today i thought we were doing pretty well, but apparently i've been mistaken. For being as far apart as we are, i am content with the way things are going. There is only so much that i feel i can do, and in my mind, i was doing the best that i could. Unfortunately deb has been rather disappointed with me and finds it discouraging that i'm not doing more. I admit that I am still new to the whole dating thing, and i'm especially lacking in the long distance relationship area. I don't like to do things over a distance. I know the phone and the internet are wonderful things for bringing people together, that's how i met her in the first place, but i have a hard time being intimate over such a distance. I'm not much of a people person, but when it comes to being intimate, face to face is the only way i know how. I want to do more for her, i really do, but i just need time. I need time to learn. This is my first long-term relationship, combined with long-distance, so there is a lot i need to learn. I just need the time to learn.